I have recently been signed off of work by my doctor for two weeks because of my depression. The strength of my anti-depressants was also doubled. I haven’t actually been to work in close to a month, as I took two weeks off sick before getting signed off. Who knows what sort of mess I’m going to walk into when I go back, but right now I really can’t handle being there. It’s too stressful, and far too monotonous.
I have been keeping myself busy though. I’ve recently rekindled my joy for books, and reading. I decided to give up on the idea of the Ebook Reader, as, whilst it’s a good idea, too many publishers were avoiding the idea and therefore books by various authors weren’t available in digital format. Unfortunately a lot of my books have gone missing, so I’m going to have to re-buy them at some point. For now I’ve purchased the first of the Discworld books by Pratchett, bought the first two books from the new Darren Shan series, and read the first one (which was very good), and grabbed a copy of 1984 by Orwell, because it must be read.
Alongside that I’ve been spending less time at the computer, and have only really sat at it when I’ve got something to do, or for limited periods of entertainment, to watch something or chat to people, instead of all the time, which brings me to my next point. Website development.
I’ve always had a lot of website projects on the go, whether for personal reasons or for other people, but they’ve never really jumped on me this much. In the past two days I have designed and developed the Dissonance website (a friend’s band, who are very good), thrown together the Children’s Voices website, done more work on the two websites for my Dad (Wud Records and Explicit Music), and have begun to build an online shop for the Wud Records site, complete with encrypted links for MP3 files so that the various music on the site can be purchased and downloaded.
It’s all very crazy right now, and it feels like as soon as I scratch something off of the to-do list, more things are added on. I wonder what it feels like to have nothing to do?
I know it is none of my business, but I'd be very weary of some antidepressants. I really would. I was reading a book the other day which stated some brain problems are merely affiliated with the neurotransmitters in the brain and anyone can learn to remap the brain and fix physical ailments.
Of course, the pharmaceutical companies really don't want anybody to know this.
My friend was telling me about her experience with anti depressants – she, in her own words, lost 6 years of her life to them. It turned out she was vitamin B deficient – something that no one ever looked into until she had a test and saw a specialist about a year ago. Now all she takes are vitamins and supplements, and she's a completely different person. Be warey of the antidepressants. Sometimes they're not the answer for anyone apart from the doctor with a waiting room full of people.