I’ve never really liked tight spaces, or the thought that I am unable to get out of the place I am in, but it has never really bothered me. However, over the last few months it has started to build up into something more. My breathing will get really quick and my lungs will feel constricted. My body will tense and thoughts will race around my head.
This morning I was sat on the bus, which was late. There was quite a big woman driving it, and she had all of the heaters on. The bus smelled like hot urine. After a short amount of time the bus got full, and people demonstrated their clear disability to be able to stand up on a bus properly, because it’s really so hard. 15 people piled up at the front of the bus complaining because they can’t stand up properly whilst there’s plenty of space at the back, but people can’t stand in a god damn line.
So, some old person came and practically sat on my lap, smelling quite horrible. Shortly after we got stuck in traffic. Pretty much at that moment I realised how hot it was, and how many people there were between myself and the door as I was being squashed into the window.
Luckily things didn’t get very bad, but I just wanted to get off of the bus. I hope this isn’t the start of something.
I think most people have felt like that at some point, so don’t go worrying yourself about it Dan. That morning bus is horrible…especally with the kids being assholes too.
Why not try sitting nearer the front next time? You’ll be able to get some fresh air every time the door opens and hopefully be able to ignore everyone behind you too. And remember, you’ll never be really stuck…you can press that bell and get off if you need to. x
wow. thats not bad at all. i have severe claustrophobia and this almost insulted me. you have nothing to worry about. i really hope you dont think this is bad, because severe claustrophobia is 100 times worse.
… also id like to state that you may have anger issues. i noticed in this article that you are very pessimistic and cant control your feelings for such small things like people not wanting to stand in the back of the bus. were you in the back? probably not. yet you are complaining about others not going back there. seems hypocritical. i think you need to worry about bigger things than this so called “attack”. no ones perfect. and you need to remember that your not any better than the person next to you. no matter where you are… your not the only one trying to live life in this world. other people have to deal with you and the way you act too. how do you think they feel?
If you suffer claustrophobia then I’d expect you to be a little more understanding, instead of being “insulted” simply because you suffer it a lot worse than I do. Recreating the incident on my blog from memory is hardly going to be an exact replecation of how it actually was, and I’m not going to be able to describe exactly how I felt at the time, but considering you weren’t there and you’re not me, that’s slightly inconsiderate of you.
I was at the back of the bus actually. I always go as far back as I can, and I was right at the back bar one seat, because the very back seat was full. If the bus is full when I get on it, and people are standing, I always walk past them and stand at the very back, in hope that they might just get it, but it never seems to happen.
I have no idea how other people may feel about having to live with me around, especially on the bus, but considering I’m polite, and stay out of everyone’s way and am generally quiet and caring, I’d imagine I’m a lot nicer to have around than people who are complaining about the bus being cramped when they’re contributing to the problem in the first place.