Listen to this song. Now.

Now find this woman and force her to marry me. Please?

Chords, for the guitarists, are Dsus2, Dsus2/C, Dsus2/B.

I was bored this afternoon, so decided to import my blog via the Notes system on Facebook. Once I had done that, I had a quick scroll through just to make sure the import had worked properly. I stumbled across this post – don’t worry about clicking the link, read on.

That post was made on February 6th 2007 – my 18th birthday. In that post I posted my annual horoscope for people born on February 6th, it stated the following:

Happy Birthday! The months ahead are likely to start with a trip or excursion to another place. The planets indicate that this will be based on pleasure rather than business, and if you start being careful with your cash now you’ll have no money worries when this opportunity arises! The summer will bring some challenges in terms of romance; June sees you needing to make a choice, and the planets are urging you to be decisive rather than evasive! September, especially the first two weeks, will be a time when you’ll need to slow down and recharge your batteries, but in December you’re likely to meet someone who could prove to be the person you’ve been looking for!

Now, without knowing me, you could read that and not really get much from it, so let me break it down.

“The months ahead are likely to start with a trip or excursion to another place. The planets indicate that this will be based on pleasure rather than business…”
I visited Ireland in June, to see Meeka.

“The summer will bring some challenges in terms of romance; June sees you needing to make a choice, and the planets are urging you to be decisive rather than evasive!”
After getting back from Ireland, guilt-ridden, I decided to confess to the various lies I had told, which resulted in the end of that relationship.

“September, especially the first two weeks, will be a time when you’ll need to slow down and recharge your batteries, but in December you’re likely to meet someone who could prove to be the person you’ve been looking for!”
Whilst this isn’t hugely accurate, I did meet Tallis in September, and things between us did go very quickly.

Just reading through this now made me take a step back and think about the things that have happened in the past year. I haven’t yet read the yearly horoscope for my 20th birthday, and now part of me doesn’t want to.

On another note entirely, I need a new job. I think I might kill myself if I stay in this one (don’t take that too seriously, I know I’m on anti-depressants).

Feeling sick, dry mouth, sleepiness, shakiness of arms and legs, diarrhoea, headache, dizziness, visual disturbances, difficulty in sleeping, constipation, weakness, increased sweating, palpitations, agitation, nervousness, pins and needles, anxiety, problems with concentration, confusion, suicide attempts, problems sleeping, abnormal dreams, tiredness, yawning, abnormalities of vision, migraine, loss of memory, listlessness, feeling faint after standing, fast heart rate, loss of appetite or aversion to food, increase in appetite, loss of or increase in weight, indigestion, stomach pain, wind, vomiting, abnormalities of taste, increased salivation, runny nose, sinusitis, impotence, problems with ejaculation, reduced libido, problems in reaching orgasm, problems with passing water, passing water frequently, period pains, lactation, period pains, rash, itching, muscle pain, jerky movements, ringing in the ears, false sense of well-being, increased desire of sex, coughing, malaise, sensitivity to sunlight, changes in liver function, slow heart rate, fainting, allergic reactions, internal bleeding, stomach bruising, increased bleeding time, changes in bodily salt balance, serotonin syndrome.

Side effects are fun, aren’t they? Those are the ones I’m waiting to endure, anyway. I’ve recently been diagnosed with major depressive disorder, and have been prescribed antidepressants. Quite how they got away with “suicide attempts” as a side-effect of antidepressants, I don’t know. I am quite looking forward to lactating though – that would be hilarious.

Depending on how you know me and who you are will dictate whether or not you believe I have been given the correct diagnosis. Some people can’t believe it, where as others are a little more accepting. I’ve not made a big deal out of it really, and I’ve only hidden it from one person.

What really annoys me is the amount of friends who feel the need to provide their undying support and medical advice. Of course I appreciate the sentiment. It’s nice to have people who care for you, and want to support you. At the end of the day, though, your friends aren’t your doctor because they’re your friends, and there is a perfectly good reason why your doctor is a doctor. It irritates me when friends provide medical advice, because anything beyond “You should drink warm drinks if you have a sore throat” is only going to complicate matters, and often confuse or overwhelm the person with the issue in the first place. Friends should be friends; doctors should be doctors.

As a side note, it’s difficult not to be a hypochondriac when you read that many side-effects. It really is impressive. I’ve been having dizzy spells and have been losing focus, but I imagine that’s just my brain adapting to the serotonin. If it lasts for longer than a week then I’ll tell the doctor about it.

On another note, my 20th birthday was great, despite recent family issues, and I got lots of nice things that I’m really happy about. My Nan got me the duvet and pillows I really wanted, but unfortunately that hadn’t turned up in time. I look forward to snuggling into it soon.

21 soon!